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Wrestling with God – Br. Curtis Almquist

Genesis 32:22-32

This story of Jacob’s encounter – the encounter with some force with whom Jacob wrestles into the night – is both surprising and also full of hope.  This is Jacob who, up to this point in his life, is notorious not because he is a virtuous man but because he is a rather shrewd scoundrel. Most especially, Jacob is a man of ill repute because he tricked his father out of a blessing that was actually intended for his older brother, Esau.  The understanding of blessing was such a high one.

A blessing from God is the assurance of wellbeing, a promise of provision, a person’s sense of being “the apple of God’s eye,” of having a place in God’s heart.  In the scriptures, this sense of blessing is pervasive.  In the Old Testament, the main word for blessing is barak, which has a curious history and etymology.  The origins of this notion of blessing lie far back in the primitive religions of the Middle East antiquity.  This sense of blessing is connected with the fertility of animals and crops and human beings.  A sign of blessing is that there is more: more in substance, more in promise, more in goodness.  Prosperity, in every form, becomes the sign of God’s blessing in the Old Testament.  (This changes in the tradition of the New Testament, where it is the poor who are blessed – we will come back to that – but here, in Jacob’s day, blessing is evidenced in the sense of one’s prosperity.)  When a blessing is spoken – in Jacob’s earlier life by his father Isaac – those words channel a power that cannot be changed or reversed.  What has been named will come to be… which could seem so terribly unfair: the blessing Jacob receives is actually illegitimate.  It doesn’t belong to him.  He has tricked his father into blessing him, and Jacob is unworthy of the blessing, and yet, the blessing becomes his to bear.

Where our story this evening picks up is in Jacob’s travel to meet up with his estranged and cheated brother, Esau – something which Jacob would surely dread.  This difficult reunion is delayed because of a wrestling match Jacob undergoes in the middle of the night by the river Jabbok.i This story, which has been remembered and refined over the centuries, is both clear and unclear.  It is unclear in this night-long wrestling match who is winning.  Is it Jacob or the accoster?  And who is the accoster?  A demon or an angelic representation of God?  We must wait to see.  These two beings fight with tremendous, even superhuman strength.  In Jacob’s case, it’s as if his life depends upon it… which it does.  This story parallels other legendary stories in which gods, spirits, or demons attack a person in the night, and the person, in return, often exhibits something of a superhuman strength in facing them.  In the legends, the battle in the night always ends at daybreak.  In the case of Jacob’s story, we hear his accoster asking to be released by Jacob when the dawning of the new day comes.  The victor of the wrestling match is unclear; the two hang on each other; Jacob’s thigh is thrown out of joint.  And yet, Jacob does not experience being beaten but rather blessed.  Jacob asks for it, for a blessing, and finally we get the picture that his accoster is not a thief in the night or a demon, but rather some angelic messenger who carries blessing, which Jacob desperately wants and needs.  We know how this story ends.  Jacob does receive the blessing he desires, but it comes on a condition.  Jacob’s angelic accoster demands of Jacob to know his name, which is not insignificant.

In Jacob’s day a person’s name embodied their essence and their character.  To actually know a person’s name opened a channel of power between two people.   Jacob is compelled to reveal his name, and in doing so displays his whole nature.  His name actually reveals him to be a disreputable fraud.ii This amazing thing now happens.  Jacob is given a new name by this unnamed divine messenger with whom he has been wrestling, the name “Israel.”  This new name is interpreted as “May God rule.”  Jacob’s divine accoster struggles out of Jacob’s grip and blesses Jacob.  Jacob, who had earlier stolen a blessing from his father, now rightfully receives a blessing legitimately.  And, so the story goes, the sun rises.

What to make of this story?  Jewish and Christian commentators down through the centuries have made various and vast interpretations about this struggle in the night.  Among them, Martin Luther who concluded, “And so we have this noble chapter, in which you see the marvelous dealing of God with [the] saints for our comfort and example, so that we may daily ask ourselves if [God] is also at work with us and be prepared for it.”  How does this legendary story speak to you?  I’ll suggest three ways.

For one, there is an invitation here to wrestle with God.  The witness we see recurring in the scriptures – in both the Old and New Testament – is that we are welcomed into relationship with God.  In the words of the prophet Isaiah, “Thus says the Lord: “Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine.”iii God knows you by name, and we, as Christians, have been given a name through which to address God, and that is Jesus.  Relationships that are real and alive require engagement.  We call on those with whom we are in relationship, we carry them in our hearts.  In our own souls we quietly remember and rehearse their lives – what they said and did and why.  And, I would say, for those with whom we are in real relationship, we sometimes must wrestle.  We may have different views, different values, even different memories.  What is essential in a relationship that is real and alive is the engagement.

When I have the privilege of listening to someone speak about their life and their relationships, where I witness the most suffering that people bear is in disengagement, when in their significant relationship(s) there are no words, no responses, just a haunting vacuum that begs interpretation.  Real and alive relationships cover the spectrum of life – from the best of times to the worst of times – and I would say that this is so because we have been created in the image of God who longs to be in relationship.  Relationship is of God’s essence.

What is happening in your life just now and in your relationship with God?  If you are living with unanswered questions whose answers are only in God, ask God the questions.  Ask why?  Ask how?  Ask where?  Ask when?  If your most presenting need just now, in your relationship to God, concerns the questions of life, then that is your prayer.  I would even go so far as to say it is God who has given you the questions to ask.  Your questions are drawing you into a real and active relationship with God who knows you and calls you by name.  Respond in turn.  Speak to God in and through Jesus, who has given us his name.

You know that in this story of Jacob he is given a new name, Israel.  Being known by God by a new name may speak to some of you.  Here you are: a grown up with very grown up responsibilities, a very important person.  You are known by name.  In God’s eyes, in God’s heart you will always be a child, a child of God.  Is there a name – which maybe even comes out of your own childhood, a name of endearment which you were called by a parent or grandparent or sibling or close friend – a name which has dropped from your adult vocabulary but which (still) identifies the child within you?  Is this the name by which you want to be known and called by God?  Some of you may have an endearing name out of your past, or some of you may have a name into which you would like to grow and become in your future… and this is the name you claim in your relationship with God: this old name or new name.  God longs to be in a real and alive relationship with us, to know you and call you by name.

Secondly, about this thing of blessing.  You have probably not deserved your life.  Life is not fair, often in two ways.  For one, you have likely been the recipient of countless blessings, and from your earliest days.  If you consider what we read daily on the front pages of the newspaper – the suffering and trauma that so many people of the world know, and, for some, a state of injustice into which they have been caste since their birth – you can likely recognize in bold relief so much goodness in your own life.  If your life in any way parallels mine, you are in touch with blessing in life, far beyond what you could have asked for or deserved.  You may even identify with Jacob, the trickster.  You may have a chapter in your past where your life was disreputable, or where you broke a rule or violated a virtue.  This may be on public record; it may be a secret you hold in your heart.  Because of what you did or said, did not do or did not say, you got away with something, perhaps something twisted, maybe even shameful, clearly not right… and yet you got through it, or maybe you got away with it.

Like Jacob, you may still walk with a limp in some way.  There may be still some kind of scarring on your life from this shaded part of your past, but – and this may be nothing short of a miracle – you have come into a clearing.  You may even have the experience of your broken past not only being forgiven but in some way redeemed.  It’s actually being put to use, and to God’s glory.  The insight, care, sensitivity, generosity, humility which may be so evident to other people has come out of your broken past.  If they only knew…  Take the occasion to acknowledge before God where you find yourself now (which is where God finds you now).  Consider the work of God’s hand on you life.  Pray your own understanding of Jesus’ promise to seek and save the lost – lost as you may have been at some point, at some points in your past.  Pray your history… which, of course, God already knows.  But one of the most important things in a relationship, when people in relationship speak deeply to one another, is not the content of the conversation.  People who know one another well often understand one another well.  Many things can go without saying… except that in the saying, often times there’s the making or re-making of a relationship.  It’s not about the content, it’s about the trust, it’s about the choosing to invite another back into your life after the lifeflow in the relationship has been broken.  It’s not about the content, it’s the trust in these conversations that’s so important.  And so it is in our prayer.

And lastly, your life (or aspects of your life) may seem far removed from this Old Testament sense of blessing.  The hallmark of blessing in the Old Testament is that there is more: more in substance, more in promise, more in goodness.  Prosperity, in every form, becomes the sign of God’s blessing in the Old Testament.  In the New Testament, in the light and life of Jesus, this changes.  Now it is adversity that becomes the touchstone for blessing.  Jesus says to his disciples, “Blessed are you who are poor, for yours is the kingdom of God.  “Blessed are you who are hungry now, for you will be filled. “Blessed are you who weep now, for you will laugh.  “Blessed are you when people hate you, and when they exclude you, revile you, and defame you on account of the Son of Man.  Rejoice in that day and leap for joy, for surely your reward is great in heaven; for that is what their ancestors did to the prophets…”iv

What Jesus is saying here is unbelievable unless this has been your experience: to know blessing coming out of adversity.  And surely this has something to do with the cross of Christ which Jesus invites us to take up.  Jesus promises that God’s favor, God’s care, God’s provision, God’s love, God’s blessing can be known in the best of times and in the worst of times… which you can probably best understand if you’ve been there.  If you have been to brink of life, if you, in your own words, have cried out to God like Jesus did from the cross, “Why O why have you forsaken me?” and then miraculously lived to tell the story, then you probably know something about mystery of blessing that can come out of the greatest of adver­sities.  What was undeniably and perhaps unexplainably bad has in some miraculous way been redeemed as a channel of God’s light and life and love.  And that is the paradox of God’s blessing, where you can neither deny the bad – when you’ve been weeping or hungry or in some other way tormented – nor can you deny the blessed good that somehow the one has preceded.  Maybe even the one prepared the way for the other.

The whole of life is to be blessed.  Look for it, ask God for it in your past, in your present, in your future.  Blessing is of the essence of God, who longs to be in relationship with you, with thems like you.  Whether you have a shadowy past (like Jacob) or are as innocent as a dove – many of us are probably a  bit of both – God knows, God loves, God calls you by name.  God longs to bless you, and bless others through you.  It’s of God’s essence; it’s of your essence, you who have been created in the image of God.  Bless you.

i The Hebrew word ’ābhaq, wrestled, is a wordplay on Jabbok.

ii Genesis 25:26; 27:36.

iii Isaiah 43:1.

iv See Luke 6:17‑26.

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15 Comments

  1. Ruth West on October 14, 2016 at 02:29

    Br. Curtis, thank you for this very helpful sermon.
    I, too, have had my share of wrestling with God, in sorrow and tears at more than one point in my life. But, He gave me a new outlook, a new name, a true blessing. I am now in the Autumn of my life. God has never been more real to me. I don’t have the challenges I once had when my children were young, and I was working outside my home every day, but, even now, I have important decisions to make as I continue on the path He has shown me. The sermons I get each day from you brothers inspire and enlighten me. Thank you!

  2. Jo Rees on October 10, 2016 at 04:08

    Thank you Br Curtis for this sermon and the depth of humanity and hope you remind us of again and again. I feel rebalanced, and re-set with God, when I recall the undeserved blessings and all that comes from the wrestling times.
    Also, I am encouraged that you re-use parts of your sermon! I remembered one of my favourites (July 2009) as I note the ones which feed or challenge me most – and found how you’d taken some paragraphs from this one and expanded them in new ways. This gives me, as a regularly preaching parish priest, lots of encouragement. I can return to rich seams and mine a little further – completely new creations are not always needed! Thank you.

  3. Theresa on October 9, 2016 at 12:57

    I am processing so much in my life and am at a cross roads. With the help of God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit I will move through this with grace, This writing is so moving as I wept reading it. I thank you for the blessing of the food you provide, in Jesus name. Amen.

  4. Rhode on October 9, 2016 at 09:20

    The weeks after Lent were full of the awareness of Gods’ great love then came a tough Summer where events conspired to bring me to this Autumn of discontent and almost numbness. I woke up last night feeling bereft and unable to pray it away. I recounted the many times I have experienced such troughs after a spiritual blessing ….so I gave into the rythm of the ebb and flow and allowed myself to stay awake and listen to the darkness. I awoke to your message of Jacobs’ wrestling and blessing and pain and revelation and a new name …a new future. God speaks. I praise Him for these timely messages and I thank you.

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  6. Glenna Bailey on October 8, 2014 at 18:53

    Br. Curtis,
    You are one of our greatest blessings. Thank you for sharing your understanding with us.

  7. Pam on October 8, 2014 at 15:22

    O you do understand and so much more – how wonderful. “That God’s blessings can be known in the best of times and in the worst of times”. Sometimes it’s what happens inside of you that is the biggest blessing isn’t it and that is no small thing. I love John 17: 3 – that we have the WHOLE of eternity to get to know God and Jesus. Just imagine what we will discover – I’m remembering an earlier word from one you brothers 🙂

  8. anders on October 8, 2014 at 14:10

    Thank you. At times my struggles leave me wrestling through the night and limping the next day. It´s easy to see that conflicted, wretched unlucky state as wrong and bad, whereas God is supposed to be good, right? But instead it is creating space for God to reign, or at least have a bigger slice of my awareness than earlier. That makes such struggles a blessing in their right. Now to see them as such, welcome them and to say thank you.

  9. Graham on October 8, 2014 at 10:25

    To live is to experience a blessing. Thank you for this meditation.

  10. Faith Turner on October 8, 2014 at 08:01

    Count your blessings even if they are not exactly what you wanted at the time.

  11. Dawn Stroud on August 25, 2013 at 13:42

    So much to help one to see more clearly in this sermon ! Thank you. I am so aware of receiving many blessings but offering so little in response. I have found this very challenging.

  12. Christina on August 23, 2013 at 23:09

    Dear Curtis: Your words were stunningly beautiful for me today. Thank you. Christina

  13. Robin Antonia Hendrich on August 23, 2013 at 12:20

    Thank you so much. Just what I needed today.

  14. Carol Babb-Pool on August 23, 2013 at 12:01

    Thank you!

  15. Gresh Lattimore on August 23, 2013 at 07:45

    Thank you, Curtis, for these insightful thoughts. As I grow older and reflect upon my own life of many blessings, I cannot but wonder about why this has been so. Surely more than I could have ever asked for or deserved! So in gratitude for these blessings, I have tried to give back to others some of this goodness I have experienced. I often feel it is not enough, but I must make the effort and keep giving back.

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