The First Sunday in Lent
Deuteronomy 26: 1-11
Psalm 91: 1-2, 9-16
Romans 10: 8 b-13
Luke 4: 1-13
It was the fall of 1999 and I was in Jerusalem for the first time. I was there on sabbatical and was attending a course at St. George’s College. A week or so after arriving we all piled onto a bus and headed for Cairo. We were to spend about 10 days in Egypt and Jordan stopping at various sites along the way. One place we stopped was St. Anthony’s Monastery near the Red Sea. As its name suggests, this is where St. Anthony the Great, who is known as the Father of Monasticism, lived alone in the Fourth Century. After our visit to the monastery we went to the cave where Anthony actually lived. The cave is high up on a hillside and requires a climb of several hundred steps, but I decided not to go. Everyone else hiked up the hill, and from all reports had a wonderful time. As enthusiastic as everyone was after having been in the cave where
St. Anthony lived, I have never regretted my decision. I decided not to visit the cave because I thought that the best way for me to honour St. Anthony was not by visiting his cave, along with everyone else, but rather by doing what he did, by being alone in the wilderness. I spent the hour or so while everyone was up the hill, sitting on a rock gazing out at the endless barren landscape.
There wasn’t much to see, but on the other hand, there was everything to see. I was alone, but on the other hand, there was a lifetime of memories to keep me company. Sitting there in the midst of that barren expanse I realized I was on holy ground. Monasticism had been born here. It had been born out of the experience of one man, living alone for years gazing out at this barren landscape and with nothing else to do but to begin to gaze within upon his own inner landscape. Once Anthony began to gaze within, the torment began and he wrestled, sometime literally, for years with his own inner demons.
Today we are on holy ground again. You could argue, that while Christianity may not have been born in the wilderness, it is certainly marked by it. We are marked by the experience of Jesus sitting alone gazing out at a barren landscape and with nothing else to do but to begin to gaze within upon his own inner landscape. Once he began to gaze within, the torment began and like Anthony, he wrestled with demons.
It would seem that the devil is not fond of people who set their minds and hearts on seeking God and good. Anthony headed into the wilderness having taken to heart the gospel injunction to sell all he had, give to the poor and follow Christ. Jesus was driven into the wilderness following his baptism where he was proclaimed to be the beloved Son of God. Both headed into the wilderness to understand the full meaning of their vocation in God. What for Anthony did it mean to follow Christ, and what for Jesus did it mean to be God’s beloved Son? What for both of them did it mean to live in union with God?
These questions are as alive for us today, as they were for Anthony and Jesus. What does it mean for you and me to follow Jesus? What does it mean for us to be God’s beloved daughters and sons? What does it mean for us to live in union with God? And these are the questions which makes the Great Deceiver or Satan tremble, for as our Rule of Life reminds us: Powerful forces are bent on separating us from God, our own souls, and one another.
The story of Anthony, the story of Jesus is played out in our own lives. Wherever and whenever we decide to live in union with God in prayer, worship and mutual lovesuddenly we are filled with the demons of doubt, conceit and jealousy. Wherever and whenever we decide to discover for ourselves what it might mean in our life to follow Christ, we are filled with the demons of hopelessness. Wherever and whenever we decide to claim our inherent goodness as God’s beloved, we are filled with the demons of worthlessness. Wherever and whenever we decide to seek a life in union with God, we are filled with the demon of despair. Wherever and whenever we take our stand for Christ, Satan trembles and the demons of fear surround us.
The language of scripture, the language of the life of Anthony, the language of devils or Satan or demons or the Great Deceiver, may not be our language, but the story is the same. Powerful forces are indeed bent on separating us from God, ourselves and one another. Life would be easier, more convenient and sometimes more fun if we didn’t have to contend with this God thing. But we would be vastly poorer for it. We would be vastly sadder for it.
Life in union with God has the power to fill us with faith. It has the power to fill us with hope. It has the power to fill us with love. Life in union with God has the power to fill our lives with meaning. In a world where so much seems meaningless, life in union with God is good news indeed.
But good news, and especially this good news, does not come easily. Anthony knew it. Jesus knew it. And we know it. We all know firsthand the temptations that exist which are bent on drawing us away from the life in union God.
For Anthony it was demons in the guise of lust and laziness and boredom. We can see those demons attacking him in the figure of a little red devil up in the window that depicts him in the clerestory here in the Monastery chapel. For Jesus it was Satan in the guise of power and wealth and prestige. We read about them in today’s gospel. I know what my demons are, and I am sure that you are all too familiar with your own. But the good news is that these forces which attempt to draw us away from God, need not have the last word. They didn’t for Jesus. They didn’t for Anthony. And they don’t need to for us. Because the last word belongs, not to Satan, but to God. And that word is love.
So next time you are troubled by doubt, ask if its name is love. Next time you are troubled by fear, ask if its name is love. Next time you are troubled by jealousy, ask if its name is love. Next time you are troubled by lust or greed or shame or worthlessness or whatever other demons come to you, ask if its name is love. And the God who is Love will be made known to you and you will discover, or discover again what it means to live life in union with God.
 Matthew 19: 21
 Mark 1:12
 Luke 3: 22
 SSJE Rule of Life: Chapter 27 Silence
 SSJE Rule of Life: Chapter 1 The Call of the Society
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